janie pat 3
last night, i told my husband that i wanted him to spank me.

i set it up with a candle-light dinner, sans kids.  he was surprised that we
were eating in the kitchen rather than the dining room, but i knew there was
no way i could sit on the hard seats of our dining room set, whereas the
kitchen set is padded with these little tie on pillows i made for them.

he knew something was up, but i just didn't know any other way to get things
started.  after dinner we went into the family room to snuggle and talk and i
asked him if he ever surfed the web for unusual sites.  adult sites.

he said he had and so i asked him if he would show me some of the adult sites
he looked at.  he was into stories on alt.sex.stories and admitted that he had
posted some himself (only he wouldn't tell me the pen name he used).

well, i figured that since he had his own adult fantasies, maybe i could tell
him about mine.  so, i took him to s.s.s. and LSF and let him read some of the
posts there (including one of my own) and then i asked him what he thought
about bdsm and D/s and adult spanking.

he refused to answer me and asked where all of this was leading.  so, i
printed out my posts, let him read them and then asked him to watch the video.

he was very quiet while he read the posts, but his face kind of closed up when
he watched the video.  then he asked me if i wanted him to spank me and i told
him i thought i did.

he got up and paced around the room like a wild animal trapped in a cage.
then he told me that he needed to go for a drive and think.

he was gone til after midnight and when he came home, he still seemed closed
off.  i asked him if i had angered him and he said no.  he just had some
thinking to do.

he went off to work today without mentioning it, but he seemed calmer.  i am
going to let him think about it some more.  i don't know what is going to
happen, but i watched the tape again after he went for the drive last night
and i was very turned on by it, even though my bottom is still pretty sore.

i just wish i knew where he went last night and why he still seems so tense.
and why didn't he just say he doesn't want to spank me and get it over with?

i am so confused.